Charlie helped Luna put her things in the drawers. If they wanted to fool the camera crew and audience, then her clothes had to be in the closet, too. The apartment had to appear like she’d never left. He hadn’t been good at decorating and needed her special touch—which was why he’d kept things the same. She made the apartment feel like home. “Change what you think will help the place look more like ours than mine.” He checked his watch. “The crew should’ve been here fifteen minutes ago. The legal people said nine.”
Luna carried her makeup to the bathroom. “We need more towels out.”
He grabbed towels from the closet. “Done.”
She arranged her makeup and hair products on the counter. “You have all those pictures of us, don’t you?”
“Of course.” He couldn’t toss the memories.
“I’ll replace the on the wall.”
“You kept the pictures?” She followed him. “Really?”
“Uh-huh.” He opened the drawer on his desk. All the framed photographs of them together were there. “I couldn’t part with them.” His heart squeezed. He never should’ve filed them away, but some days he couldn’t bear to look at her. He’d loved her more than she understood. “Help me put them back up.” He handed her two of the frames. “You were always better at decorating.”
She accepted the frames. “I don’t know whether to laugh or cry.”
“Why?” He withdrew the other three pictures.
“What’s wrong now?” He missed her ability to be so emotional.
“Your idea of interior design involved lots of planes, chrome and space. You needed my help.” She held up one of the frames. “I know where to put these, but it feels odd to be putting these on the wall when we’re not really…together.” She nodded to the empty nails. “You never filled the gaps when you took these down?”
“How could I?” He stood behind her and breathed in her sweet scent. “Without you, I’m not complete.”
“You’re laying it on a bit thick.” She sighed and held up another photo. “But I like it.”
He massaged her shoulders. “Looks good.”
“Thanks.” She finished placing the last photo.
“Any word from the crew?”
“Not yet, but they should be here any time now.” He embraced her from behind.
“So much can go wrong, you know? We could be on the verge of crashing and burning.” She leaned into him. “I should walk out.”
“I know and I beg you not to, but I can’t make you stay,” he said. “We’re in a bind. No, I’m in one. You’re helping me out again. I can’t thank you enough or make this up to you.”
“I know.”
“I hope you give me a second chance and this ends up being our second act, instead of the end.” He let go and walked away before she could argue with him. His heart broke and he didn’t want her to see him crack. She had his heart in her hands, yet she wanted to leave. Always with the leaving. He wasn’t sure he’d survive her going this time. Not sure at all.
A lot could go wrong, but a lot more could go right.
Charlie left her in the living room and escaped to the kitchen. Shit. He was in over his head. He thought he’d gotten over her. Fat chance. He loved her more than ever. If she told him to stay home and not go to the moon, he just might do it. He’d never let anyone have such power over him.
He poured a glass of water and stared at the tile behind the sink. If Luna dumped him in the end, he’d never live down the hurt. He downed the water and tried to clear his head to no avail.
He missed her. She was his other half.
“Charlie.” She joined him in the kitchen. Her eyes shimmered. “Do we get time without being followed?”
“I don’t know.” It wasn’t a fib. “With the dating show, I was told I’d have some private time. I guess it all depends on the drama we create.” He didn’t want any drama. All he wanted was to be with the woman he loved.
“We need to get a few things straightened out then—while it’s still private.” She sat on the
counter.
“Sure.” He finished the glass of water. “Need a drink?”
“You don’t have anything strong enough and I’m not in the mood to have my drinking end up on television.”
“Fair enough.” He leaned on the countertop opposite her. “What’s bothering you?”
“I want to tell you not to love me. I want to say this is just a game.”
Fuck. He knew this song and dance. If she’d just admit she loved him, too, things would be easier. “But?”
“I can’t.”
He hadn’t seen that coming. “You can tell me not to fall in love with you.” It didn’t mean he’d listen.
“But you will.”
At least she knew him that well. “I won’t lie. You’ve pegged me.”
“But you’re leaving. What if you never come back?” Her chin quivered, but her voice remained strong. He knew that catch, though.
“Then I take good memories of us with me.” He inched over to her and settled in the vee of her legs. “I know something could go wrong and I might not come back. It’s a fear we have, but I can’t be afraid. I have a job to do. I could’ve died a hundred times when I was flying and testing aircraft.”
“You don’t understand.” Her voice cracked. “It nearly killed me when you flew off. I can’t not be afraid.”
“I know.”
“I couldn’t stop you.”
“Did you want to?” He needed to know.
“No.” She sighed and picked at the wrinkles in
his shirt. “I know you were the happiest when you were in the cockpit.”
“But?” He tipped her gaze to meet his. “Tell me.”
“We split because I left, didn’t we?”
“I wanted to keep trying, but you were tired,” he said. “So yeah.”
“Is that the whole reason we split?”
He didn’t understand. “I’m not sure, babe. I never wanted you to go and I didn’t understand why you’d left.” He needed her to make sense of this.
“I spent so much time alone. You were always training and when you weren’t, your thoughts were on the mission.” She grasped his shirt.
“You didn’t want to be with me. Just eat, sleep and train. I felt invisible. I wore those nighties for you. Candles, music…nothing worked.”
Fuck. He regretted ever being so blind to her needs. Space had been his dream, not hers. Well, shit.
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